The Avali Nexus

Don't want to say it's fine, but it really is just a blue day for me. No real cause for it, I just am. Sorry for sounding like a bitch, if I came off as such...

Which further adds to my belief that I might have a slight bipolar disorder. Strong cases of mental illness and mood disorders on both sides of my family. I highly doubt I dodged bullets with that.

 

Hope you get to feeling better Reksanden. Part of it might be we'd rather avoid saying the wrong thing, and so err on the cautious side when unsure.

The good thing is it seems you are aware of where you might be, and maybe that'll help some. It can't hurt. And you didn't come off too badly. I'm still relatively new though, so I don't know you well.

 

In that case its best to have faith in yourself. I've had a whole mess of issues. friends, family, and faith in myself always seem to work.

 

Before I forget, here's a screenshot of another building I made right next to the previous one. It's supposed to be both a lounge area and as a storage with Avali crates [after RyuujinZERO updates the mod].

 

I'm not so naive as to say we are what we chose to be.

But I do firmly believe that our worth is determined by how we play the hand we're dealt by life. It's not whether we're strong or weak, rich or poor, intelligent or simple, healthy or infirm. It's our struggles that forge us. If we fail, then let none say we didn't try our best. And if we succeed? Victory's all the sweeter for being wrenched from the grip of fate.

Have some nice music, everyone:

 

Darn, I can't sleep, so many things going through my head... Revelations... Things that, defy the ability to be expressed in a appreciable manner with words, with meaning itself...
I found something... But I don't know what yet, it's overwhelmingly good in nature, but it's an unknown, So it intrigues me so...

 

One of the biggest anathemas to me is this:

I seek people I can be friends with, people similar to myself. But at the same time, there's this equally powerful urge to betray and be alone at all times.

Saying that it feels like i'm being torn in half between the urges is an understatement.

 

Betray as in abandon, I take it?
I have a bit of the loner in me as well, despite a desire to truly belong someplace.
I get that feeling each of us can be our own worst enemy, just in different ways sometimes.

 

Not just abandon.

Be a sadist, make them hurt.

I think that it's because I was always picked on and ignored when growing up. Boohoo, right? Well, no. The early years of childhood really set the bricks of your person, and I wanted those who were always mean to me, to feel what I felt, to be alone and hurt like I was.

Then there's the other half of me, that's nice and kind and respectful to hold that bad side back, and thus I'm always at war with myself with even basic social interactions.

My partner has the worst of it. They have to put up with that all the time, and deal with their own problem while trying to help me. And being so far away only adds to the mix.

 

Aaah, OK. That clarification helps.

 

I won't say that I understand how you feel, or that I can speak for everyone, but it hurts me that such awesome people, both you and Shadow, are being forced though these kinds of troubles. I would be quite happy to help you out if you think it would.

 

One thing worth noting, depression's best weapon is isolation and loneliness, and your best counterattack is to use that against it. When you feel sad, hopeless, alone, what you really need is to fight that feeling that you should shut yourself in, go at it kicking and screaming. Find someone who you can share your deepest thoughts with, and do so. Because when you share your vulnerabilities with a trusted keeper of them, you can never feel truly alone again, and as a result, depression can never fully take hold ever again.

 

I'm not sure how much help I can be, but I'm willing to try. And maybe I can avoid saying anything that does harm (even inadvertent harm).

 

I've always done the most harm to myself, looking back at it. So I appreciate all of the help and support you've given me, and you've no need to worry about it harming me.

Now, since this thread went to a therapy session, that raises a question. What methods would an avali psychologist use to treat mental illnesses? If avali have psychologists, that is.

 

but you're wrong money does grow on trees, crystal trees that is

 

Everyone's worst enemy is themselves. I don't agree with a lot of Freudian psychology, but I do think he was onto something when he characterized human thought as a war between different instincts. But the first step is acknowledging the problem, because once you've done that, it's then within your rational power to choose how to react. Won't be easy, but there'll always be a choice. I guess the point I'm driving toward is that you're never truly helpless as long as you understand yourself.

And now, for a sudden swerve onto topic (in the off-topic thread; we're such rebels):

I'd assume that group therapy sessions are almost certainly a thing, given pack nature. Probably discussion and analysis as well. But asking how they treat mental illnesses misses the really interesting question, which is: "What mental illnesses do the Avali suffer from?" Even here on Earth we have a surprising number of mental illnesses that are contained to a single region, culture or timeframe. With such isolation and diversity of mental instability here on Earth, we cannot assume that aliens would suffer from the same mental conflicts that we do.

Do entire packs come down with mental illnesses at once is an excellent example of what I mean. Does a lone Avali become depressed, or does depression spread within a pack so quickly that the entire pack must be considered as a unit for treatment? Do the Avali actually have depression (probably, but just for the sake of making a point)?

 

AEROGEL pills obviously.

 

looks like it's 100% aerogel, I'm starting to think these pills are placebo pills

I see that L4D reference there

 

Hey guys... do you... do you think it would be possible to (as an avali) clone yourself but that clone has no mind just simple respiratory functions and get a full neural integration and control that clone like an avatar from but because you're still the same avali it feels practically the same all you would have to do is get basic control over balance, hand eye coordination, movement, etc and you have an avatar of yourself that you can run around with while your idk in a medical center or in coma and in that factor could you technically upload your mind to that new body if the need arises?

 

Pixels can grow in plant form... with the right mod..

I would imagine a lot of mental issues within Avali culture would be handled within the pack, so that any issue which would need external therapy would by necessity involve the whole pack. Their identity is each other after all. Beyond that, I would have to punt to Ryuujin.

BTW, is that a Kobold scarf your Avali is wearing, J_Mourne? Reaper picked one up like it in a village of low-tech people. He's rather fond of that thing. Only thing he's worn aside from a Buster Sword prop and trying on a scientist shirt briefly.